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Unnatural
04:47
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I encountered here a mystery on its way around the world
It was stopping for a visit with a small enchanted girl
I awakened and enlisted in that bright cerebral moment
In the work that will forever be unfinished
And I hailed it as a most unnatural
Perfectly sensual
Highly improbable moment
In which everything was as it should be
And isn't it always, actually
I imagined here a piece of something larger than myself
And that it wasn't all me after all
But then an angel came along and placed the lock inside the key
As if to say I'd had it all completely wrong
And I hailed it as a perfectly natural
Highly sensible mostly common moment
In which everything was as it shouldn't be
As always, naturally
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Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1994)
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In the prime of my life
I’m absolutely in denial of everything I ever thought I knew
There’s a face in the crowd
Smiles at me sweetly
Just like someone I’d known before when all the world was new
I will never forget what’s-his-name
He’s driving down the highway in an angry wilderness
He is there in my reflection
And he’s there in your embrace
And his name is in the embers
Nearly lost without a trace
I will never forget what's-his-name
I will never forget what's-his-name
I will never forget what's-his-name, whats-his-name
I will never forget what's-his-name
I am passing in time
Surface in memory
I follow in the footsteps
Of the man who fell from grace
I am passing my prime
Lost in a desert
Where the wind is so hot
That I’m afraid to show my face
I will never forget what’s-his-name
He’s driving down the highway in an angry wilderness
He is there in my reflection
And he’s there in your embrace
And his name is in the embers
Nearly lost without a trace
I will never forget what's-his-name
I will never forget what's-his-name
I will never forget what's-his-name, whats-his-name
I will never forget what's-his-name
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1995)
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3. |
So Unsure
04:26
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There are times when I don’t want to go and just need that extra push
When you’re always there to give me what I need to carry on
There are times when it’s so frightening to face what might be there
When it just seems so much simpler to return where I came from
But it’s not about safety and it’s not about feeling secure
It’s the time to take some chances even though I’m so unsure
There are times when I go into a robotic trance
There are times when I’m just doing the idiot dance
There are times when I’m asleep that I suddenly awake
When my soul starts to stir and recall what’s at stake
But it’s not about safety and it’s not about feeling secure
It’s the time to take some chances even though I’m so unsure
It’s not about meaning and it’s not about truth
It’s time to step out of this isolation booth
It’s not about meaning and it’s not about truth
It’s time to step out from the isolation booth
But it’s not about safety and it’s not about feeling secure …
But it’s not about safety and it’s not about feeling secure
It’s the time to take some chances even though I’m so unsure
Ow!
So unsure…
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Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1996)
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4. |
Twisted
05:05
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You have a twisted face
To match your twisted mind
Dark and hopeless mystery
Angry, young and blind
Can’t see eye to eye with anyone
And nothing here will do
Obsessing with the tangled eyes of death
Is nearly killing you
You’re twisted
Angry, young and blind
You’re twisted
Less than half a mind
You’re screwed up
No place you can be
You’re used up
A worthless novelty
Near all-pervasive spells are binding you
To your own fate
Clocking in ahead of time
You're still an hour late
Your humorless expression tells
Too many tales of woe
You don’t know how to say goodbye
You just know how to go
You’re twisted
Angry, young and blind
You’re twisted
Less than half a mind
You’re screwed up
No place you can be
You’re used up
A worthless novelty
You’re twisted...
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Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1997)
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He said, today is the first day of the rest of your life
She said, what’s so great about that?
He said, a brand new day to make new choices with each waking breath
She said, nothing could be further from the place where I am at…
The world extends as far and wide as a plummet into the depths
Of pain and suffering, sorrow, humiliation, and eventually, death
He said, he said…
How can you be so cruel to yourself
She said, what do you mean by that?
He said, trust in what you feel in your heart
She said, everything I know I learned from my cat
She said, my hopes extend as far and wide as the space between my breasts
With pain and suffering, sorrow, humiliation, and eventually, death
He said, life is a wheel and death is a mask
And the truth lies somewhere else
She said, that may be all well and fine
But just keep it to yourself…
The world extends as far and wide as a plummet into the depths
Of pain and suffering, sorrow, humiliation, and eventually, death
She said, my hopes extend as far and wide as the space between my breasts
With pain and suffering, sorrow, humiliation, and eventually, death
With pain and suffering, sorrow, humiliation, and eventually, death
With pain and suffering, sorrow, humiliation, and eventually, death
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1996)
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There’s nothing to be done
Now that the die is cast
And sanity, most certainly
Is something in the past
I don’t remember anything
I don’t remember why
I think that once I thought I knew
Before I lost my alibi
I tried to make some sense of it
I tried to hold on fast
But now it’s clear that sanity
Has slipped into the past
I once had common sense
I could depend upon
But now I’ve jumped the fence
I used to sit upon
I wasn’t the first and I won’t be the last
To know that sanity is something in the past
And maybe this is all my own illusion
And maybe this is all my own invention
And maybe this is only dissolution
Of something that was never my intention
Maybe it’s true
That I lost my direction
Or maybe I was lost all along
It’s really just a matter of perspective
There is no absolute right or wrong
I wasn’t the first and I won’t be the last
To know that sanity is something in the past
I wasn’t the first and I won’t be the last
To know that sanity is a thing of the past
A thing of the past...
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1997)
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7. |
Everlasting Punishment
05:31
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EVERLASTING PUNISHMENT
IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME
A LOVE THAT LASTS ETERNITY
CANNOT BE SWAYED SO EASILY
TALK TO ME SWEETLY...
I WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE
TALK TO ME AS IF I HAD A CHOICE
TALK TO ME AND TELL ME ALL ABOUT YOU
AND ON THE WAY I’LL LEARN ABOUT ME TOO
ALONE AMONG ETERNITY
WE ARE ALL THAT LIVES AND BREATHES
WITH A MILLION SOULS SURROUNDING US
AND A MILLION MORE ABOVE AND UNDERNEATH
EVERLASTING PUNISHMENT
IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME
A LOVE THAT LASTS ETERNITY
SURVIVING MY OWN SANITY
SURVIVING MY OWN SANITY
THE SUN SHINES OVER THE BUILDINGS
AND THE LAKE
THE CHILD WAKES FROM HER SLEEP
SHE HAS TOO MUCH AT STAKE
THE WOMAN-CHILD IS TRYING TO EXPLAIN
BUT THERE IS NO REASON
TO BELIEVE IN ANYTHING AGAIN
IT’S THE ONLY THING TO DO
IN TIMES LIKE THESE
RISE UP FROM YOUR KNEES
WALK OUT OF THE PLACE
THE RHYTHM COMES FIRST
AND THEN THE RHYME
WE DON’T KNOW
WHERE THEY CAME FROM
BUT WE KNOW THEY TOOK
ALL TIME TO ARRIVE
MOCKING ALL WE FEEL WE KNOW INSIDE
TURNING OUT THE LIGHT
SINGING ME TO SLEEP
GOODNIGHT…
GOODNIGHT
EVERLASTING PUNISHMENT
IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME
A LOVE THAT LASTS ETERNITY
SURVIVING MY OWN SANITY
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1997)
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8. |
Miserable (As Morrissey)
03:14
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There’s something I hate to admit
That really gets to me
Brings me face to face
With my own defeat
And I feel such shame
Such perfect ennui
That I’ll never be as miserable as Morrissey
When I’m down and out, he’s more of a downer
When I’m feeling low, he’s near six feet under
When I feel depressed, he’s still much more depressing
I’m vulnerable but he’s completely undressing
Oh, woe is me, oh, woe is me
I will never be as miserable as Morrissey
Oh, woe is me, oh, woe is me
I will never be as miserable as Morrissey
Oh, woe, oh, oh
Oh, woe is me, oh, woe is me
I will never be as miserable as Morrissey
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1993)
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9. |
I Don't Belong
02:37
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i don’t belong
everything is wrong
with this picture
i don’t believe
i want to leave
from this picture
i am someone
i am no one
i am undone
i am run down
‘cause i don’t belong
i don’t belong
moving among
this breed of human
strange as it seems
i know what it means
to feel useless
i have been used
i’ve been abused
i’ve been afraid
i’m still underpaid
and i don’t belong
no i don’t belong
it’s obvious to see
i don’t belong
just look at me, look at me
i don’t belong
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1993)
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I’m so sick and tired
I’m so tired
I’m whining and crying and I’m so sorry
But I can’t go on like this
No I can’t go on, I can’t go on
I’m so scared
So lost and unprepared
I’m whining and sighing and I’m so sorry
But I can’t go on like this
No I can’t go on, I can’t go on
No I can’t go on, I can’t go on
But you know the truth is, I will
I will, I will, I will, I will...
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1995)
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So much for pleading
Now what will you do
When what you want
Still stubbornly won't come to you
And so much for wanting
Now what will you do
When all that you want
Is pulled away from you
Who will you be and
Where will you be if
None of your dreams comes true
It's not my prediction
But I couldn't help wondering
What would you say if I asked you?
What would you say if I asked you?
What would you say if I asked you?
What would you say if I asked you?
Well, so much for
Creative Visualizing
When what you see and what you have
Refuse to come together
And so much for
All the pretty words
And all the pretty pictures
In all the pretty books
Who will you be and
Where will you be if
None of your dreams comes true
It's not my prediction
But I couldn't help wondering
What would you say if I asked you?
What would you say if I asked you?
What would you say if I asked you?
What would you say if I asked you?
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1993)
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You weren’t there when I needed you
You never answered my calls
Just the same old, same old, same old
So it’s no wonder that I’m angry
Well I’m sorry but I won’t apologize
I don’t need any favors, empty promises or lies
I’m sorry but I won’t apologize
You were hollow on the inside
Full of vapor, a mere illusion
No more than a vague intrusion
When I wanted so much more
Well I’m sorry but I won’t apologize
I don’t look back with fondness to those times
I’m sorry but I won’t apologize
Apologize… I’m sorry
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1994)
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There’s something I hate to admit
That really gets to me
Brings me face to face
With my own defeat
And I feel such shame
Such perfect ennui
That I’ll never be as miserable as Morrissey
When I’m down and out, he’s more of a downer
When I’m feeling low, he’s near six feet under
When I feel depressed, he’s still much more depressing
I’m vulnerable but he’s completely undressing
Oh, woe is me, oh, woe is me
I will never be as miserable as Morrissey
Oh, woe is me, oh, woe is me
I will never be as miserable as Morrissey
Oh, woe, oh, oh
Oh, woe is me, oh, woe is me
I will never be as miserable as Morrissey
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1993)
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i don’t belong
everything is wrong
with this picture
i don’t believe
i want to leave
from this picture
i am someone
i am no one
i am undone
i am run down
‘cause i don’t belong
i don’t belong
moving among
this breed of human
strange as it seems
i know what it means
to feel useless
i have been used
i’ve been abused
i’ve been afraid
i’m still underpaid
and i don’t belong
no i don’t belong
it’s obvious to see
i don’t belong
just look at me, look at me
i don’t belong
--
Words and music by Andrew Lawrence Jackson (copyright 1993)
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Andrew Lawrence Jackson
Alternative singer-songwriter, recording artist, Zru Vogue co-founder, based in the San Francisco Bay Area.
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